human

ye.assalammualaikum. terasa nk menulis. apa yg terbuku dihati yg dh setebal kamus. merepek! ok! ketika ni aku sedg lepak sensowg dlm bilik. alone! bunyi kipas menemani diri yg sunyi...art saaangattt! tkot sbnarnya dok sowg2 nih. bila stay alone at home mcm ni telinga jadi lebih peka pda bunyi sekeliling thp tak boley blah puny. td bunyi kucing naik ats  zink pown wat jntung aku brdegup laju "my heart couldnt beat faster" (lagu video khwin maria) hehe. so aku tba2 rsa nk bc nvel. dok sowg2 kn. kalo lebih mgkin aku akn sembg. mmg kaki sembg tgn dok diam. owg len suma hv gone bck to their hometown. tggl aku sgsowg. bila smpai td tgok laman umah kosong terasa jiwaku kosong kosong kosong (rentak najwa). bila bca nvel td teringat yg nk turn into practising muslim is really difficult. despite of staying in malaysia. why?? cbb bukn suma owg praktik apa yg sptutnya. slh suma owg ke or slh dri sendiri? diri la kn yg ko nk influence by envronment sgt tu knp. tp ya still ckp senang, doing it is the hardest. tp bleh ke nak make that as a reason for not doing the wajib one. xkn. dulu time mula2 nk jd yg len dri yg len pown susah. as a prkongsian bg mrka yg rsa nk pkai tudg. yes! at 1st it is not only weird but make we do feel as an alien..kalo nmpk cute mcm minion xpe la jugak. tp ni mcm nmpk cj7 (owh tu pown still cute) but we do feel like the ugliest & x uptodate once we wear things lilit ats kepala & once we wear it depan everyone bukn mahram wlaupown manusia ckp alaa....we all can mcm dik badik jugak & wat so ever comment xmembina utk kita praktik islam bukn dlm solat jer tp in all kita punya tindak tanduk. but yes we need to do it. itu stu perjuangan yg kita hanya mampu wat dgn kekuatan yg diberi darpdny.  InsyaAllah.